Basically, a page dedicated to telling you what
hobbies I do and other shit I talk about.
So, with that out the way let's get started!!!
So, if you've ever read my fanfictions or followed me on Instagram,
AO3/Archive of our own(I'm still pissed I attimes got the url name wrong!),
or whatever site you see me at, you already know I write and draw twisted, dark
shit. Be it cannibalism, religion, antireligion, gore, non-consensual pregnancies,
assault of various types.But, of course when I do write fanfics(and non-fanfictions),
I try my best to write them in a serious, sensitive tone. Some of it does serve
a purpose beyond writing tragedy. I wanted to depict Female on Male assault in
a way that isn't sexualized or comedic.
I don't care very much whether you depict my OCs in a provactive way. Do what
you like(unless the versions of my OCs aren't of age). I personally don't mind if
you depict my characters as Hetero, Gay, Straight, Pan, Non-binary, whatever,
As long as the OC Lore is thought through, I don't mind, cuz CJ's relationship
with Ezekiel is abusive. I personally don't feel the need to tell others this
through here, but whatever, I'll say it anyway.
I also wish to write what most don't when it comes to certain topics along
with depicting nudity in my work. My intentions are rarely to depict it as sexual,
but you can see it that way if you like. Art's subjective, yeah?
So, I won't lie to you, I sort of ship Piper(My OC) x Miles.
To be honest with you, I dont think it's ultimately necessary to tell you my
sexuality(or know yours). If you ask, I'll tell. I'm a fictosexual and am into
fictional men(though I admit I've looked at IRL men at one point or another).
There's other details I've left out, but pretty much this is what this is.
I don't really care what you do, how you draw my characters, just make sure
you're familiar with the Original Lore for my OCs before considering drawing
them in any scenerios as some of my OCs have a dark past. Do I mind my characters
being sexualized? Not even a little bit! Hell, I do it myself! I still appreciate
you asking all the same, though. The only characters I'd have a problem with being
sexualized or drawn in a way that's suggestive is any OCs being under the age of 18
or OCs that have bad associations with other OCs(i.e., Travis and Zeke or CJ and
Ezekiel).
Most of the time, I'm not completely sure. I think I often look at different
shows, movies, etc and would often get ideas from that. The idea from Piper's life
is somewhat based off of me as my mom passed from breast cancer when I was a teenager.
Most of the things I write about aren't things I can relate to(I'm thankful for that).
I'm hoping anyone reading this can't relate to them either. My fanfictions are never
just meant for grotesque, visceral entertainment and is meant to be relatable for someone
out there. I'm fully aware the topics depicted within my fanfictions are tough topics and
are meant to be handled with care. I intend to write these as a form of solace for those
who may need it. I'm hoping to write future stories in ways that are much more subtle.
Short answer? The Internet. I plan to try changing my art style.
So, I created Abby for the sole purpose to learn how to not take alot of things seriously or write
some lighter ideas.
Just some non-fandom related topics.
When I was much younger(around 22), I was a self-proclaimed Laveyan Satanist
(I still believed God existed, but doesn't get get involved with us). I think
that type of religion is agnostic, right? Anyway, I felt that Laveyan Satanism was
more of a label or identity to me, plus it didn't feel right for me at the time. I did read
the general beliefs they had. "You're not obligated to complain", "If you are in someone's lair
(or house), you treat them with respect or leave. Be heartless if the respect isn't reciprocated",
shit like that. Long story short I don't carry that belief anymore and I think I'd describe myself as
agnostic. I also enjoy diving into various topics, even if I can't completely relate to them or if
they genuinely make me uncomfortable. Don't worry, I'm making sure not to over do it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
So, at one point I hid my gender to remain anonymous(along with my age(I'm 29 btw)).
But at the same time, I at one point questioned my gender I felt like I wasn't a man, but
I wasn't a woman either, like the gender was neither. I saw myself as non-binary in a
sense at one point. I considered changing my name due to it, not feeling right and
wanting it to feel unisex or gender-neutral. But, then somewhere along the lines,
I felt it wasn't for me.
Keep in mind this is my own experience. Don't think you'll be like this, even if you do, it's fine.
Life's about figuring shit out. No one can do that, not even your parents. Considering
someone's advice is fine, blindly jumping head first into it
is almost never a good idea. What works
for others might not work for you and vice-versa.
To be honest, I don't think I need to say it. But given people's work like mine
can be misinterpreted, I might as well. It's an awful thing to do to a human being.
It doesn't matter if you're a man, woman, non-binary. It doesn't matter if they
said no then later yes, it doesn't matter if they said no and don't push you away
It's still harassment. It's still assault. It's still overstepping boundaries.
I want to point out not every person is unaware of this. There are people who
are fully aware they're overstepping boundaries. People like that are beyond
explaining to. Move on and don't waste you're breath.